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I’m trying my hardest not to do it! Not to harm myself in anyway. But I have 15 dihydrocodeine, 12 ibuprofen & 6 flue tablets in my hand I want to take them all. I want to feel how I felt last week when I nearly overdosed! I just want to feel something!
IM NOT EVEN DEPRESSED IM FUCKING INSAINE!!
Iv don’t it again about 30 slashes into my side back and forth it doesn’t look like much and it didn’t feel like much but I deserved it
Well I lasted 59 days well done me
Back to square one …
10 days no cutting. Lets keep this up!
I’m drunk again and sorry but I want to kill myself again this always hapens
Day 7 - list 10 things that help calm you down
1 - talking to my best friend 2 - TAPPING not hitting my head 3 - not sitting still I have no more things I don’t calm down very easily
When the person who your trying to save yourself for the most is the one dragging yourself back down
Day 6 - what about it do you enjoy?
I used to enjoy nothing about it not one single thing but now I enjoy it all I guess, from the blade slicing through my skin to the scars that follow after
Day 5- what part of self harm do you dislike the...
When the scars are fresh and people know you have just cut yourself. The scars I don’t really mined but when people know there fresh you can’t say oh there from ages ago.. :/
Day 4 - do you consider yourself addicted?
Yes. I do I want it wall the time I can’t go long without hurting myself in some way, it’s sad really because it used to hurt me on the inside, I’d cry and cry and think how could I do this to myself?! But now not even one tear, I like it I need it.
Day 3 - what is your motivation to recover?
My best friend, I think it’s killing her more than it is me, doing this to myself & tbh she the only thing stopping me from killing myself because she wouldn’t be able to cope, blame it on herself for not saving me in time & I don’t trust anyone to look after her, not like I do and I just couldn’t leave her.
Day 2 - what part of your body is most effected
Left ribs and stomach But I have cut both my thighs, left arm and wrist, both palms of hands, feel, hips, lower back and neck
Oh how I want to hurt myself right now! How I want to run the blade through my skin!! Perfect.
Day 1 - how long have you self harmed?
Where do I begin? I started when I was young maybe 13 but it was nothing compared to now, I used to mentally harm myself then, then I used to hurt myself by leaving bruises then as I got older I started to cut myself, over the last year and a half iv even tried killing myself, but being stopped at the last moment :/ I still do it and still want to kill myself but I can’t leave, not just...
Keep it all in..
The thing is I want to tell people I cut myself, that I’m hurting so much but I can’t because they just say well stop? Or what do u have to cut about? How are you depressed? It’s not that simple!!! Then if you do it again all they say is I tried to help!! NO YOU DIDN’T!
I actually like the feeling of hunger.. That's why...
Hahahahahahahah best joked Iv herd all year.
All I want is to talk to someone who won’t judge me, who won’t tell me to stop but to encourage me to hurt myself. Will anyone?
I’m getting so mad with myself!!! Everything I do! Everything people say to me seams like I’m the bad person! What do I do so bad!? No wonder I hate myself everything I say someone makes me feel bad for saying it :( I feel like crying :’(
I'm too young to be so sad! :'(
My best friend is my only reason why I don’t cut myself, I love her and she loves me, she cares about me. I moved away to go to Uni but I got a tattoo saying “stay strong” on my side to help me remember who I am and not to do things to myself when she’s not there but I want to cut so bad but I know the tattoo is there, saying no, I can’t give in I just can’t!...
Being drunk and being depressed isn't a good...
It's just so hard
I don’t know what to do anymore all I want to do is cut myself, feel the blade slicing through my skin, the blood poor out. I want it to be deeper than the last time, to leave a scar that will last to remind me of who I am. I want to do it now but I can’t, I promised my best friend I’d stay strong for her but its not always that easy is it? Sometimes it just gets the better of...
no one loves a suicidal girl.
I needed to start this...
I think i need this, i need to share my story with people, i want to help people but most importantly i want to help myself. so this is my story, most people will just pass this by and not read it and that’s okay but i need to get this out. My names not important, but i’m 18 and i haven’t lived much of a life, i’m not looking for sympathy because tbh i don’t deserve...
The worst thing is I lie to my best friend that I don’t do it anymore, that I don’t want to do it anymore when really it’s the only thing I look forward to anymore. The blade, the blood, the feeling, the relief.